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Here I am, sitting on my desk for what it seem like hours, and still trying to figure out what to write. Some people might want to hear more about my vacation, but there's really nothing special, or worth blogging about. Yes, I had fun -- as always! No! I didn't meet any guys. But, that didn't stop me from staring and ogling at the hunky Dads though.
Would you believe it took me 15 minutes to write those 5 sentences?
I'm just so beat. My mind is still on overdrive from my vacation. This just goes to show you that you need to take at least 3 vacation intervals during the year. I was just working too hard, that I didn't even take any of my vacations until last week. So, I'm still in vacation mode. I get irritated when people call me for something. My desk is a mess - just as I left it. I haven't done sh*t! It's 9:36am and I'm already thinking about lunch break and 5:00pm. I can't blog properly. I don't know what's going on?
When I was a lot younger, I take refuge in writing when I'm bored. Then ofcourse, at puberty, you learn that masturbation is better, but that's a whole different post. I realilze every single blogger has bouts with "writer's block" every now and then, but I think I'm suffering with something more serious. No, I'm not quitting blogging! GOD NO! I just think I lost interest in writing more thought provoking posts. I feel as though my posts lacks soul. The panache is gone.
Yesterday, I was reading some of my early EARLY posts, and it made me smile. I felt a certain surge of pride all of the sudden. I kept saying to myself "I wrote that? Damn!". Don't get me wrong. I have no regrets with my current style of writing. But, I miss my old posts where a cloud can invoke so much emotions that you'd feel it with my writing. Nowadays, a cloud is just a cloud.
I feel so bloated right now. Cramping. Fatigue. I need Midol.
Cue the pulse to begin.
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